I guess the problem I do have with this is that I don't fully understand PTSD. It has been brought up several times with my doctors, counselors etc, but never really fully discussed.

When I did this, I had a fear that I would not ever want to come out again. Normal was the wrong choice of words and I am surprised at myself for using that term. I hate that word. It should not exsist.

I tend to be one of those who need someone to sit with me and explain what "labels" mean. What does all of this mean when they make an diagnosis but yet can't sit and tell u what it means. I find it sooo frustrating. I have so many "why's" and I suppose with the right kind of counseling some of this can be answered. I am praying that this new t can shed some light on why I act the way I do and why my behavior in my eyes seems so bazarre. But reading everything that has been replied with this post, its not so strange is it?

This really helped me see more of the unanswered questions I do have and has brought some clarity to it. I giggled Sky when u say, "Now that you know (what you already knew) how can we help you? I really don't understand all of this but slowly seeing more and more by what others go through that there are reasons for my "regression". And how can you help me; you already do my dear. Just being here helps but most of all sharing your experiences helps me realize that I am sure the heck not alone. I am one who needs clarity in all aspects of life. If something does not make sense, I drive myself crazy trying to figure it out. This is one of them. I do like to post here first before telling my t. I think fear of what they may say is what holds me back.

Thanks all. Oh and Silver, you did not take over my thread. This is what its for, sharing and learning. So talk away dear, I love to hear what u have to say.

Justy