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Old Apr 30, 2017, 11:22 AM
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We've talked about my mom. Married at 16y/o to my dad when he was 21. I don't know how or why she dropped out of school. She never graduated high school.

Innocent, yet, she was smart. I could have never passed the real estate boards (to receive her real estate license.) I could have never been a department head of non-foods at Marsh Grocery and Hughes.

She was hard working, never sought nor caused drama, kept family business inside the family, loyal. Home immaculate. Very likable. Neat, delicate but was never afraid of tackling hard work.

Loved dogs and horses. She was a farm girl.

Versatile: not many people can say, "My mom could ride a cow." Mine could.

You would have liked my mom.

We have also talked about how she didn't protect me, really, from my brother, my teachers, the neighborhood or my dad. Some of that was due to her "innocence." She didn't know how to do it any better. It wasn't because she was mean or did not care. She was a good person.

Her last few years were stressful. I wanted her to have whatever she wanted.
She didn't want a breathing tube. She didn't want a nursing home. She wanted me. I tried really hard. I really did.

Regardless of everything else- I tried, and failed somewhat, to protect my mother.....who didn't always protect me.

"Pre, Thank you so much for sharing the pictures and your words. Your Mom sounds like a person who had many many lovely qualities, but she could not protect you. Perhaps she wasn't protected when she was young. The bad things that happened don't erase or negate the good, and the good things that happened don't erase or negate the bad. Life is full of both. Both are worthy of attention....the bad and the good.

Let's talk more abut her and your feelings, a natural mixture of hurt and sadness, respect and happy memories, I think.

I hope your day is quiet and peaceful. You are in my thoughts,
T"
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