well now you're just tempting me! (re: ticket to hypomania). My writing is SO boring right now, I would give anything for some sparks.

how did you deal with your anxiety? I have looked at lots of pictures (yikes!) and am somewhat comforted by the fact that the bad rash isn't really an itchy sort of rash, but I don't like that it can start with symptoms as vague as fatigue and headache - my two best friends.

I can't stop imagining getting the rash and cursing myself for taking such a risk (it's actually very similar to my don't get on an airplane logic). I know I take a bigger risk everyday when I get in my car, so thinking this way is nonsense, but there it is. I guess a part of me still believes I can get over this if I just keep trying hard enough, so why risk dying or becoming permanently blind over a med? (What's the saying about doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results? ugh, that's me).