Hi, I have 4 kids. I wasn't diagnosed until after the 3rd was born. Ive had symptoms since about age 14 but with my first 2 I was fine. No postpartum depression. My third pregnancy was hell which lead me to seek help. My moods were all over the place and I should have been hospitalized. With my 4th I was pretty stable until the end. I also had other life things going on with the last 2 that caused major stress so that kind of factors in as well. My baby is almost 4 months and I did go into a cycle after and a little before having him. The depression has lifted but I still feel a little hypo. I've not been on meds since about this time last year. I think it's possible for you to go off meds and have your baby, just keep seeing your therapist. Before my last I was on Seroquel 150mg, after learning I was pregnant I was switched to Latuda 20mg and transitioned to taking nothing. I would just try to avoid anything in your life that would cause major stress because that could be a big trigger as it is for me. I hope this was somewhat helpful to you. I don't regret having my babies, they are the reason I keep going even when I'm depressed and don't want to be here anymore. They are my motivation.