something i have learned in treatment for eating disorders....

Even after integration of my alters I still do not have the body image that I wish I had. wrong shape this part of my body too small that part too big that part too long you name it. been there done that. it was really bad to the point of eating disorders and hospitalization..

what it finally came down to was not worrying about my physical body and comparing it to the image I want to be. but to instead follow what my treatment providers say is healthy for me.

Rather than fad dieting, fad starving, skipping meals and such things I threw away all the stuff in my life that wasnt working and consulted with my doctors. they helped me to find that happy medium of my treatment providers version of a healthy diet complete with a plan that included all food groups (something I learned in an eating disorder facility was that most human stomachs and digestive systems are not meant to be eating just this or that, the human body has evolved to where everything works together and when deprived the body goes into starvation mode of saving this or that for later in the form of fat cells) eating a full range and more but smaller meals fools the brain and body into getting rid of whats not needed instead of storing it for later.

rather than binge exercising then give up I am also on a carefully selected by my treatment providers exercise routine. this also enables my body to get rid of the excess calories without my having to restrict my diet making the brain and body slip into storing for later mode...

my suggestion would be contact your or a treatment provider. they can help you to achieve the body image you want without causing your body more harm then good.

as for my alters having a different body image then I had I discovered something interesting. the body images of my alters were the same body images that I had at those ages. I discovered this by looking at photographs of me at those ages and comparing them to what my alters were sharing with my treatment providers and me. once I discovered that I did not have a problem with their body image being different than mine.. I was an adult they were children/ teens so of course their body image was going to be different than mine and also their body image ultimately was mine when i was their ages. they came from me through dissociation, therefore their body images were mine at one time or other anyway. the difference was I was looking at their body images from my present age and point of view and they were looking at their / what used to be my body image from the point of view of their own sense of agency (who and what they were, their memories, trauma's, emotions, control ... all that stuff that can be found in my links at the bottom of my post)