I can relate. I don't really have an answer to the question. I have spent most of the last 12 years struggling with suicidal ideation. Have acted on it many times, clearly I'm still here so it never worked.

I am struggling a lot with it lately, I feel like there isn't really support anymore. No one seems to hear me. I am basically forcing myself to carry on for a certain period of time, after that I have permission to give up if I still feel this way.

I have tried everything that has been offered, I know there are more options but I guess not in my area.

Sorry, I just twisted this and made it about me. Just wanted you to know you're not alone