ugh how will i leave you alone until wednesday? remember how i said i don't like suspense so sometimes when i'm reading a book i'll skip and read the end to make sure it's worth reading? well i feel that kind of suspense right now i wish i had a magic book that i could read the end of to find out how my session is going to end up on wednesday. that is if i don't talk myself out of going. i've blown this whole thing completely out of proportion in my mind as per usual. ugh again. but you know what if i take a breath and think about it i trust you and our relationship enough to show up wednesday even though part of me doesn't want to. unless you text me to cancel because of my emails then i won't show up. and i won't blame you if you need to do that because something is definitely going on with you and i want you to take care of yourself.