Hi. We share the same scars. I ever made one thread discussing about it, here:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/copi...ur-hatred.html

I still enrage when I think about that time honestly, sometimes I even imagine that I made my revenge to them. I still hate them even through I realize that my former bullies has been changed into better person or already hit their own karma.

Currently, I tried to calm myself down with the breathing methods. You can try it too.