i do have support from the people at the cancer center and also from the volunteers for the American Cancer Society who drive me to treatment daily. That's pretty much it except for forums like this one. i really don't understand how my relatives can not know how to respond. I cannot know what is in their heads. I had a hell of a time growing up and they must have experienced some of the same. So I am sorry for them. Must get off of my pity party!