I'm so upset. My mother, who I thought had been sober for over nine months, has revealed that she's been secretly drinking. It hurts so much. She's dug us into a hole and we're stuck now. Our car was just taken away. When it comes to credit... ours goes downhill when she drinks. Our power had been shut off a week or so ago, and she had to borrow money.

I feel so betrayed. She said she's been drinking rum, used to be wine, and she'd drink it when she was alone, or mix it with her soda, so we couldn't smell it. I found a bottle once but she said it was old and she was throwing it away. She told me now she'd been lying. She was drinking it. It's gotten me very depressed, almost suicidal.

The only things I feel are stopping me are my best friend Alyssa and the fact that it'd end up with another bill for my family from a funeral. I just don't know what to do. It hurts so much to know she's been lying. I was so proud of her...