LabrythineHeart,
I too have suffered from depression since before my son was born. I went to a psychiatrist who recommended an antidepressant. I breast fed for 6 months then took the antidepressant and went to therapy. Fast forward 20 yrs., my son is now in college
I know what you mean about not having the energy to pretend enough to have someone to socialize with. Through the years I have found people that I can be myself with. I've had some physical health issues this year and find myself feeling depressed again so back on an antidepressant for about a week and a half now. I'm hopeful that I'll feel better soon. Do you have anyone to help you. Sounds like you have a lot of responsibility?