Kinda maybe? I feel smaller than I ought to be. I know part of it is a weight problem. I have been underweight for much of my life and it is one of those things I need to be hyper vigilant about. Then the other part of it for me is that body mind disconnect I have. I do not connect to my body like it's my own, it's smaller framed than I am, it's shorter than I am, it's just not me. It's off. It's not what I am supposed to look like. I've been doing host type stuff for a few years now and still get weirded out when I see myself and understand that woah, this is my body. How did that happen? Bizarre. Sometimes I catch myself staring in a mirror actually poking my face. I don't look like me, but clearly I do or I would not be in this body. Some part of my body issues I have zero control over until I settle into this skin... if I ever do, that is.

As for weight and stuff I can control, for me, it's hard to be consistent. Just because I want to eat right and exercise, it doesn't mean everyone else in here with me wants to. Some don't even understand that it is important and necessary to eat. Most of us struggle to feel/understand hunger cues. A lot of us just do not eat. Ever. It's a problem. I end up undoing my own progress a lot as a result. I try to just pick up the pieces and bounce back. It can be difficult to do when your progress gets undone over and over.

Best advice I have on this is to try to get as many on board as you can and make a united front with the same goals in mind. I do much better when I have others around with the same goals as my own. Amsterdam and Gwen are champs for this kinda thing and when they are more active, food and exercise are way easier for me to stick with consistently... I get help, you know?

I also seem to do better when I am excited about food and exercise. That vibe seems to be contagious and others pick up on it.

I try to keep healthy snacks around with notes saying they are to be eaten so littles have something to go for if and when they show up and others know what they can and cannot eat (if they care about that kinda thing). As a bonus, I have less things like milk spilled all over the floor if there is just something to grab and eat as is, so that's a bonus.

I also try to keep a list of what has been eaten that day and what cardio/strength/flexibility stuff has been done that day so stuff can not only be attended to but not overdone.

I actually put a ridiculous amount of time into stuff like this, but it has kept me largely above an anorexic weight for three years now, so it seems worth it to me. Food and exercise is a large part of my existence. If you ever wanna talk recipes or cardio or whatever, I'm all about it. Not sure about you, but having other people to talk to about this kinda thing help keep me motivated and on track.

-V