Please, no hate. I know what I did was wrong. My fingernails are GONE. I have extreme anxiety...I can't stop obsessing, my heart rate has been elevated for the past three days, and I'm so stressed about it..
Something happened at work, and I responded to it...and later, when recounting the story, I embellished. I don't know why I did. I didn't think about the words coming out of my mouth. I'm usually an extremely honest person. I think I was scared that I didn't handle the situation perfectly, that I maybe misinterpreted what was going on, so I embellished to make it seem like what I thought was going on was definitely going on...it was stupid, and I feel horrible. Horrible. There's no way I can come clean, because my boss wouldn't trust me (duh). I never want to tell any kind of lie ever again...ever, ever again.
It isn't a lie that hurts anybody. It isn't a story that can ever be verified or disproven...and even if somebody had a full video of the entire incident, I didn't do anything wrong (other than embellishing the retelling). But for some reason, I'm terrified that it'll come to light that I embellished it, and I'm furious and embarrassed with myself. I don't know how to stop obsessing and just let this go...I feel like a person on a television drama...
To make matters worse, my boss posted the whole incident on Facebook, applauding the way I supposedly handled it. It's been shared 700 times in the last 24 hours. Everyone is telling me how great I am, and I don't deserve it. I feel nothing but shame. I'm sick to my stomach.
I know most of you will tell me I deserve to feel this way, and I agree. I just needed to come clean somewhere. My anxiety about this is through the roof.
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