I'm not one of the ones that's going to tell you that you deserve to feel that way. I'm sorry you're having a tough time. We're all human and make mistakes. You just made a mistake. I know the anxiety is doing a number on you but if it didn't hurt anybody, isn't that big a mistake and it can't be verified then cut yourself some slack. I know that's easier said then done but you worrying yourself sick won't change the past or the future. Hugs coming your way.