Thanks for the responses everyone. My therapist is currently out of town and my appointment with him isn't until the 10th. I'm trying to wait it out until I see him because the last psychiatrist I saw she didn't make me feel very good and didn't want to give me a mood stabilizer and did some things that she wasn't suppose to do so I'm refusing to see her until my therapist comes back and can send me to someone else. my wife doesn't understand and my family doesn't think i have bp because my grandma has bp1 and I'm not acting like her. i just feel alone right now in all of this