So I've been dealing with a lot lately, finals, lack of friends, my brother attempted suicide, a good friend of mine got raped.. etc. etc. But I've been dealing very well with all of it. Only cut a few times since my brothers attempt, and not at all since my friends rape.

But now tonight my best friend since elementary school calls me. Her fiance had broken up with her about a month ago for another woman. She's been having an amazingly difficult time dealing with this. I've been increasingly worried about her mental health, and have many times suggested she go talk to someone, cause she's depressed. Tonight she says to me "Lately I"ve been feeling like taking a leaf out of your book. I'm glad my knives aren't here." This totally hit me like a ton of bricks. I've talked to her about my cutting twice I think, it's not something she's really comfortable with. But now I feel awful. I mean, I feel so guilty for putting the idea in her mind. I didn't know what to say to her, so I was just giving her automatic responses. And after hitting me with that she starts hinting she may be thinking of suicide. I'm now in a complete panic. I feel like this is somehow my fault. I don't know what I'm going to do if she cuts herself. Has anyone else ever had this happen to them? I mean, I don't even want to go talk to any of my other friends about this problem. I don't ever want to mention my cutting again. I can't believe I put the idea in her head. I'm so scared to talk to anyone.