Started going into an episode a couple days ago. Even had a white flash when I saw a particular image in my mind. I could have become very uncomfortable..but I was able to stop it, get grounded, breathe,...and importantly, speak. I've struggled with connecting the dots, I suppose because I'm fighting acceptance. Sometimes I can think acceptance, OR feel acceptance, but I rarely think and feel acceptance at the same time.


The intensity was bearable, but I'm still tense and anxious. Also, present day stuff has me vigilant. I can't manage to relax, but I'm doing necessary tasks, and enjoying my family. Otherwise, I'm hiding out a bit.

I wish I could get rid of the tightness in my chest