You are NOT pathetic. By you telling yourself that, you're only going to internalize it, and before you know it, everything you do is going to be summed up in that one word. By NO means an accurate portrayal of who you are.
Cutting doesn't make you pathetic. Its the means by which you express yourself. Maybe not the healthiest form of expression (although, absolutely no judgment here), but do not let it define you.
Do you have a T you can talk with this about?
Keep posting, and keep that chin up