i don't think i have much elasticity left... to be pulled back and forth any more, stretched and popped any further... im exhausted... used up... done...
up and down... over and over... i dont think i can have d.i.d... i dont know what i have... i just am tired... i just want it to go away... i just want to end it all... i dont want to live like this... i cant live with myself like this... i just want to be normal and have friends... to have a life... a regular life...
i cant take it anymore... i just feel like im broken... i dont know how i can be so confused about whats happening inside of me... i feel so stupid...
like you are really really stupid not to be able to understand whats happening inside of you omg! im trying so hard!
im trying too hard... i miss my friend... she hates me because of my problems...

i hate myself... why cant i be normal... i dont want to have any problems... i hate this... i hate my life...