Thank you all. Its been a busy week of birthdays and life. I appreciate the words of wisdom and how I can see I'm not the only one in this unfortunate situation.

Jennifer, I can't afford a therapist. Saw one for awhile, but I couldn't afford to continue seeing him. I appreciate your support. Trying to set goals, but I can't seem to focus. I have my moments where I can, but the knowledge of my situation tends to immobolize me. Like, it's overwhelming, the time table of possible escape and what is will take to shorten or meet that desired time table. I know I will be so much better of a person (perhaps just in my mind) if I move out.

So, Skeezyks, I suppose, with that being said, I am indeed experiencing the anxiety and learned helplessness that you mentioned. I hope to dig myself out of the hole one day and appreciate your support. Aside from the anger issues that you mentioned, it sounds like you eventually made it out of there and I congratulate you on that.

EndlessDark, I'm sorry that you are still right there with me. My dad took out a student loan on me and forgot about the damn thing. It took my credit score from a 740 two years ago, to a 567 today. I have had a total of five jobs. Problem is that you and I don't need jobs. We need careers. My mom and dad try to help me, but its not quite the help I need. "Get over it and get a job." doesn't quite do it for me. Not that they are that cold and blunt. They say it nicer, but thats the core of the lecture. I'll take you up on that messaging offer. I think we can help each other.