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Originally Posted by browneyed_wreck
I'm fairly new to the bipolar diagnosis (along with schizophrenia). Anyway, about two weeks ago I was put on the abilify injection (more-so for psychosis symptoms) after being off meds for close to a year. My mood/s these past two weeks, oh my gosh.
So basically I've just been up and down with crazy high energy and then crashing for maybe an hour at the most (energy-wise). I sleep on average four hours a night, often less. My thoughts are racing all the time and when I talk it's so freakin' fast usually. I talk about whatever comes to my mind. I've spent almost my whole bank account (managed to pay rent thankfully). The thing that is weird about this is sometimes I get soo soo happy I start crying because I'm depressed and oh my, why am I doing all this? I'm so happy the earth could stop and I wouldn't care kind of feeling. I kinda feel like my adrenaline is just going and going kind of "racy" feeling.
Is this a mixed episode? Could someone further explain a mixed episode? Or how you know you are having one?
Oh, I should add that I am seeing my psychiatrist on Friday (I made a sooner appt because of this stuff going on).
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You describe very well a lot of the intense symptoms I experience during some really awful mixed episodes....the impulsivity, crying, talking about everything that comes to mind without thinking it through, racing thoughts, insomnia, adrenaline....
The only thing is during mixed episodes, I never get a "happy" high. This occurs more if I am having some rapid cycling with mixed mood symptoms. My mixed manias are very dysphoric, dark, even with some psychosis involved when it is at its worst, but not with every mixed episode.
I really hope your symptoms are stabilized soon. These mixed moods are tricky when it comes to pharmacology, but they do eventually pass, especially with the help of getting dosage and combo of meds right. Monitoring is very important during these times, so I hope you have the help you need. You have support here. (((hugs)))