I have add that having a trusted friend before you started the healing of yourself sometimes leaves you in a very vulnerable place. Sharing memory loss and the vulnerability of dissociation with someone that you have trusted for such a long time is very hurtful when it's invalidated as something that they have no idea of.

A part of me wants to believe that it's just her trying to understand but not getting it. Another part of me is pissed because of the condescending remarks that come.

She is really my only friend. Toxic now it seems.

I don't know. Maybe I'm being too judgmental myself? My heart tells me no. It's just really sad to me. I don't want to be in this place right now.