"I would pretend to care about others so they would like me. I was lonely bec I was only interested in me, & craved attention."
Wow! Reading that really hurt. Thank you for the truth. I do think this person craves attention & is only interested in his self. Problem is I crave his attention too. He seemed to understand me when others have not...& I miss that terribly.

He's told me that he would like to "cut back, but has no intention of stopping."
This tells me that it is the main focus of his life & will continue to be. I will never be the focus. I will never have the attention from him that I desire.

Thank you.