Feeling kinda stuck. Got triggered yesterday at my Celebrate recovery meeting-- it was testimony night and the speaker was describing their awful childhood. I didn't expect to have a reaction because I haven't had a reaction like that before when listening to others. Got my Dissociation headache--all dizzy and sick, shallow breathing. I could hear Sire very upset in my head. I really should have got up but I stayed. Oye. Today Sire just wants to sit in the garage and smoke his tobacco and listen to his music. I hate being stuck. I find it hard to have those internal meetings my t taught me when I'm stuck like this.