I had a virus, then got hit with allergies right after it so I'm still physically feeling like crap, and yes, I'm very depressed. Some of it might be that I'm still not feeling the best, work is really stressful right now, but it's more than that. I truly feel that the rest of my life is going to be day after day of unrelenting torture. Worry about my daughter, medical bills out of this world, retirement possibilities basically gone, all hope of ever doing anything more tha going to work and coming home totally over. My world just really sucks. The closest person I have to what I would call a friend, who I work with, has been really cold and distant recently and that's pissing me off too. I just keep going day after day and sometimes I wonder why. I really just need a break from it all but I'm not going to get it. Don't worry though, I'm not going to hurt myself, I pay way too much out of my paycheck for life insurance to throw that away. I'll be ok. I really will. I have an appointment with my therapist on Thursday and hopefully that will help me get back on a better track. I always feel better when I leave than I do when I walk in her door.

Thank you for asking and caring. It gives me a little glimer of hope in this crazy world.