There back ...the bad thoughts that am going to hurt my nieces baby ...the one she is carrying managed to be ok with her first little one who is now 2

she an angel but i am too scared to hold this little one and this little one maybe born early if my nieces health dont improve soon she got 9 weeks to go

she already has low blood pressure and she fainted the other day and was in hospital for a few hours while my sister looked after her 2 year old

am scared i cant hold this little one when it comes everyone expects me to have pics taken of me and the little one...i cant last time i did but this time i cant my sister and mother will want pics ...i dont want to hold this baby


its so bad that i feel like killing myself before she is born