Hey. Just wanted to say welcome.
I'm sorry you have been having such a tough year.
I think it's common for family and friends not to get it or think after a while one should be able to just get over it already. Hell I feel like I know better and yet I still sometimes tell myself that, self berating myself for not just thinking my way out of this shiit or whatever.

I don't really have much advice but I do know that the crappy stuff doesn't last forever and there are still good days ahead even if it doesn't feel that way right now. Do you see a doctor or therapist or anything? You say it's been getting worse- Have you found anything to help at all??

Sending you some good thoughts. Hang in there.