Oliver, what will help with these adrenaline rushes is learning how to defuse the anger you have built up in you. It will help you immensely if you slowly learn that what you tend to feel as a lack of desire to "help/fix" you is not the same as attacking you, but instead is often the limits of knowing "how" or whatever people are instructed to do in whatever facilities are present. One of the ways to distance from "anger" is actually humbling to where you allow yourself to see the limitations of others rather than how you are seeing things and embracing anger instead.