This is typical of abusers - to isolate you from friends and family, even turn them against you in many cases and then cause you to be dependant upon them. DO NOT LET IT STOP YOU. TAKE CONTROL BACK. The caps are not yelling at you - but emphasizing the importance. Abuse only gets worse, not better. Abusers will cause you to believd however if YOU only change this or do that, it can go back to how it used to be - it's never their fault. It's yours. After a time, they will apologize, say they want to try again - things will be good for awhile. You believe it can actually get better. Then slowly, little things start upsetting him again. At first you think nothing of it. Everyone has bad days. But it keeps getting worse. You keep getting the blame again. You feel you are somehow a bad person again and deserve all this - so you keep trying to make it better but it just keeps getting worse again... Then one day he apologizes again and the cycle repeats. You know whats bad about that cycle? One day - you either no longer care if you're dead or alive and either just become numb or suicide, or else he goes too far and you wind up dead. In any of those cases - you are no longer alive. Please, take back your power. You don't need money. The shelter will help you get set back on your feet. All you need to do is follow my earlier instructions. There was a time I had to do it. Your time is now.
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