The grammar of the universe is changing. It's up to me to read the signs. Yellow things, mostly. My eye is attracted to yellow things. I don't know what they mean yet.

The change excites and terrifies me. I feel special here, at the center of things, and this intrigues me. The jabberwocky peeked out at me today before disappearing again, and that scares me.

Tdoc says I can wait a few days and hope things go back to "normal." Things must get better. I cannot go back to madness. I'm having some self-harm thoughts too but I didn't tell tdoc. They aren't strong urges and I can resist them.