I never thought I would even try and post this, a day after coming here, but anyway... here goes.
Some history info so you all understand what I'm talking about.. Triggers for s. and physical abuse.

So I am Blue. I'm 14, male if you hadnt guessed so already... Have a younger brother.
We're in different fosterfamilies now. As of since beginning of this schoolyear.
This cause of my father.. and his friends. He has always hit us since as long as I can remember.
He has also been... s.abusing me... since i was like 5 or so. And he'd invite his friends over too whenever he felt like it. *ok deep breath*
He went to far though last summerholiday and I've been in the hosp 3 times that summer first for neglected broken wrist then for neglected internal bleedings then for neglected infection.
My father did get arrested.. Somehow the 2nd time I was in the hosp they figured out he'd been s.abusing me.
My mother kept allowing his friends into the house so nothing really changed.. So when I told social services about that they put me and my brother in fostercare.
Hoping anything would change... of course it didnt. Except now me and my brother have been seperated from eachother and i only get to see him for a day and a half or so every other week. His .. friends... found me and have been going on like they used too.
I know everyone will tell me to go tell someone, your fosterparents, police, school, social services...
They've been threatening me though... telling me what they would do to me and worse... to my brother.. I know they will i've known them long enough to know they are capable of this stuff. And they found us this time so why wouldnt they find us again if ss would move us, ya know?
So even though everyone's trying to make me tell ss or anyone... I don't know. I'm to scared of what will happen if i do..

ok... enough for now.

Blue