Hey Sass, thanks for not only fielding my question but for also taking the time to seriously contemplate the question and then respond in such a thorough & comprehensive manner...

This may sound really 'out there' to some people - and I can't exactly explain the mechanics behind this, but here goes anyway... A life experience that has a strong emotional impact on an individual's life can leave an energetic 'impression' upon the person, if the emotional energy that was generated was not fully processed and released. This most often happens to us during our youth/childhood whne we are less consciously developed and mentall/emotionally mature. Those life experiences/events lead to emotional 'wounding' and often times we survive only through suppressing and repressing the memories and the associated emotions... Now here is where things get really mysterious... When a person is living & operating with a strong & unresolved emotional 'impression' - it's likely that that individual will continue to find himself/herself going through certain life experiences, the nature of which will tend to touch on that internalized 'sensitivity' and which will evoke similar emotional energy as that which was experienced at an earlier age... It's like the individual will subconsciously be drawn to circumstances/situations which stimulate that unresolved emotional energy within him/her.

One common example might be a person who experienced abandonement at a young age and was understandably emotionally wounded/scarred from such a life experience. That individual later in life may very likely find himself/herself experiencing relationships that end up resulting in feelings of abandonement being generated again and again. Now that person is not consciously intending to find relationships that will inevitably feature such an experience. So that begs the question - why do such scenarios commonly play out?

I myself have experienced the phenomena that I am alluding to in the first paragraph. In a strange way it's like the Universe is coordinating experiences that force you to confront the unresolved emotional energy that is being stored within you and holding you back....

I want to share with you some excerpts from a book which touch upon this very subject matter... This is the best description of this that I have come across to date:

"Long term, the energy patterns that cannot make it through you are pushed out of the forefront of the mind and held until you are prepared to release them. These energy patterns, which hold tremendous detail about the events associated with them, are real. They don’t just disappear. When you are unable to allow life’s events to pass through you, they stay inside and become a problem. These patterns may be held within you for a very long time. When the energy can’t make it through the mind because of conflicts with other thoughts and mental concepts, it then tries to release through the heart. That is what creates all the emotional activity. When you resist even that release, the energy gets packed up and forced into deep storage within the heart. In the yogic tradition, that unfinished energy pattern is called a Samskara. This is a Sanskrit word meaning “impression,” and in the yogic teachings it is considered one of the most important influences affecting your life. A Samskara is a blockage, an impression from the past. It’s an unfinished energy pattern that ends up running your life. This process of cycling energy is exactly what happens with a Samskara. A Samskara is a cycle of stored past energy patterns in a state of relative equilibrium. It is your resistance to experiencing these patterns that causes the energy to keep cycling around itself. There is no other place for it to go. You won’t let it. This is how most people process their issues. This packet of cycling energy is literally stored in your energetic heart center. All the Samskaras you have collected over your life are stored there. The stored energy patterns are real. A Samskara is actually programmed with the specific details of the event that could not pass through. If you experience jealousy because you thought you saw your girlfriend hugging someone in a car, very detailed data about that event is stored in the Samskara. It has that event’s vibration, it has that event’s nature, and it even retains your level of sensitivity about the event. The energy that’s stored there is real, and it interacts with the flow of current thoughts and events. The dynamics of this interaction cause the vibrations that are stored as Samskaras to get activated, sometimes years later. The point is that past impressions do get stimulated, even old ones, and they affect your life. Sensory inputs from today’s events dig through all the stuff you have stored through the years, and they restore the exact past patterns associated with the incoming events. When a Samskara is stimulated, it opens like a flower and begins to release the stored energy. Suddenly, flashes of what you experienced when the original event took place rush into your consciousness—the thoughts, the feelings, sometimes even the smells and other sensory input. The Samskara can store a complete snapshot of the event. It is way beyond any computer storage system created by human beings. It can archive everything you were feeling, everything you were thinking, and everything that was happening surrounding the event. All this information is stored into a tiny energy bubble within your heart. Years later it gets stimulated, and instantly you are experiencing the feelings you felt in the past. You can actually feel the fears and the insecurity of a five-year-old when you’re sixty. What is happening is that unfinished mental and emotional energy patterns are getting stored and reactivated." The Untethered Soul (Michael Singer)

"Life creates situations that push you to your edges, all with the effect of removing what is blocked inside of you. That which is blocked and buried within you forms the root of fear. Fear is caused by blockages in the flow of your energy. When your energy is blocked, it can’t come up and feed your heart. Therefore, your heart becomes weak. When your heart is weak it becomes susceptible to lower vibrations, and one of the lowest of all vibrations is fear. Fear is the cause of every problem. If you truly want to grow spiritually, you’ll realize that keeping your stuff is keeping you trapped. Eventually you’ll want out, at any cost. You will then realize that life is actually trying to help you. Life is surrounding you with people and situations that stimulate growth. You don’t have to decide who’s right or wrong. You don’t have to worry about other people’s issues. You only have to be willing to open your heart in the face of anything and everything, and permit the purification process to take place. When you do this, the first thing you’ll see is that situations will unfold that hit your stuff. But, in truth, that’s exactly what has been happening your entire life. The only difference is that now you see it as a good thing because it’s an opportunity to let go." The Untethered Soul (Michael Singer)


Does any of this content speak to you, on any level?

The fact that you report that you are continuing to have these types of experiences, and that you've shared that your experience during your youth left a deep emotional wound that you don't believe you've healed from - well this is all making sense to me now (when operating with the perspective outlined above)...


I know this post of yours was said in response to another forum user - but if I may also comment here....

Where I Believe The Answer Does Not Lie:

-spending significant conscious energy dwelling on the current/present life circumstances which are stimulating your stored emotional energy/patterns
-trying to psychoanalyze the individuals who keep popping into your life and treating you this way
-trying to avoid contact with people out of fear that they will act in a manner which ends up making you feel these sensitive emotions

Where I Believe The Answer May Lie

-it won't be found anywhere that's external to you... Not in current life events or controlling (as best you can) your environment and your interactions. The answer/solution really does lie within you and is waiting for you to uncover it. Sometimes we have to search for things where they cannot be found, and when we do that long enough, we eventually end up guiding ourselves to exactly what we were hoping and searching for all along.

-I feel like you need to direct the majority of your focus and conscious energy towards reconnecting with that 10 year old girl who went through those challenging experiences which led to that emotional wound/sensitivity forming. By sufficiently reconnecting with that earlier version of 'you' - you will be able to evoke the stored and suppressed emotional 'energy' which needs to fully surface so that it can be consciously acknowledged, processed, and then released (purged). But as long as some of it is being stored deep inside you - your sensitivity will linger. This ties in with what the author was saying about how the Universe or 'life' can give you events (later in life) which are designed to stimulate this unresolved energy so that it can surface and be cleared/resolved (let go of). Freeing/liberating yourself in the process.

-Do you find that you are also holding onto certain emotions that are directed at your family members for the way that they acted towards you during this challenging time of your life experience? Any anger, bitterness, resentment? If so, do you feel like you need to find forgiveness for these individuals in order for you to eventually secure your inner peace? And by 'forgiveness' I do not mean to imply that you need to contact these individuals and tell them that you forgive them. That's not required. By 'forgiveness' I mean an inner state that you arrive at where you decide that you are ready to let go of the debilitating emotions (hate, anger, bitterness, resentment) that may have been getting directed towards certain individuals. Where you decide that you are no longer going to allow those past actions to define your present state of consciousness - that you are now ready to move beyond your former state/condition because doing so is necessary for your ongoing well-being... We can discuss this in greater detail if this is something you feel you need to work towards and aren't sure about how to tackle this task...

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In a nutshell, as you consciously develop and grow/mature - your state of awarenes will expand and this alters how you perceive yourself, current life experiences, as well as your past experiences... This experience of your awareness expanding will also have the effect of encouraging subconscious 'material' (unresolved mental/emotional energy) to surface so that it can be processed and purged (part of your growth process). At some point a very significant life experience or circumstance may come along which has the effect of stimulating the remaining stored emotional energy inside you so that it rises to the surface of your consciousness. Of course this is a very challenging development and may feel awful in the moment - but ultimately it's what needs to happen for your better good. What had been stored and suppressed needs to see the light of day so that it can finally be processed and released/cleared/resolved once and for all. You are not the same person as you were at age 10 or any year of your past. Your state of conscious development and state of awareness is not the same now as it was at an earlier time. This is why when the sensitive emotional energy/material surfaces at a later time in life - you are now in a position to process it in a different manner than you understandably had been able to at a much earlier time. I went through exactly what I am writing about above and my 'sensitivity' revolved around feelings of rejection (more specifically, self-rejection).

I want to emphasize this... Your healing absolutely can come about when you least expect it to! It's not always going to be something that we 'force' to happen through our well-intentioned calculations and planning. This again ties back to a new life experience which triggers you and feels terrible at first - but then the fog begins to clear, the light increasingly breaks through, and you later realize the higher purpose behind it and how it actually served to play a critical role in your healing/purification process! So don't give up and do continue your searching - continue your self-exploration and discovery until you find that hidden treasure that is waiting for you to uncover within yourself...