I think you should be free to live your life anyway (with in reason and the law) that you want too ... having said that ... if this was not bothering you I do not feel you would be asking others about it ... I have no advise for you ... except be yourself ... there are a lot of good people here ... reach out ...

welcome to pc ... if you ever want to talk at length please write ... I have no experience with sexual abuse but have lived a long time ... and am a good listener ...

welcome to PC ... Tigger.