I have hung out on a message board since about 2000. I used to think these people were my friends BUT, I have gotten disenchanted with them twice. Back in 2012 and recently. In 2012 I left but decided to give them another chance but adjust my expectations. But the election was the blow that made me leave.

1. I never felt heard. Although I often was there for others, I always felt like it was a race to get an issue of mine out before someone else had a massive issue that needed support.

2. I realized how much time I was spending supporting other people who weren't supporting me. I was never going to be #1 on that board. I would only be tolerated to the favorites who were on that board and I could never tell those people what I really thought or I would be insensitive.

I put the energy back into me and I do think things have been much better.

One of these people was going to visit my city in May and a few weeks ago she messaged me on that board to see if we wanted to meet up. Then today she facebooked me (I dropped her as a friend when I left the board) I am torn. I feel like I should meet her because she won't probably ever be back. I would love to show her around. I don't hate her I just don't want to be used again.

But isn't this exactly what I was talking about? She starts her e-mail with, I miss you on the board. But I have been gone since November and she writes me now BECAUSE SHE WANTS ME TO SHOW HER AROUND?

My head has said no but the heart is making me feel bad and feel like I should do it just because this is my one chance...

But I feel like I should just end it end that part of my life.