Hi.. I am new to the forum here
I know I'm 17, and it's normal to feel this way I guess but I feel really lost.
I can tell how hard I am on myself, and how much I change myself/my personality to please others. It's making me completely lose myself. Every choice I make, I consider how others would feel about it.
And I'm completely self conscious and insecure. I hate when people walk behind me because I'm afraid they'll judge how I walk, or i'll worry if the back of my hair looks okay. I lose friendships because of all of my insecurities. I don't even have a relationship with my family and only contact them when I'm in need.
When I try to talk to people, I feel like I'm annoying them. Even today, I tried to talk to my gma (who I live with) about how I feel, but ended up getting yelled at, which led to argument. :/
I have insomnia and my energy level isn't very high. I stress about my health problems a lot, and my grades are recently dropping. I've been accepted into a rly good college, and thought things were going okay for me, but not rly. I still feel the same.