((((Sky)))), thanks so much!! I am laughing cause I was planning to go to the library today before my appointment with my t but just couldn't do it. My head is going to explode. I did get through my appointment with my t but I kind of lost it. I was fine filling out some paper work for the government then she asked me what is going on. I was like a zombie and talked in such a tone that it seemed like an effort to even open my mouth. I told her exactally how I feel right now. She is phoning my new t this afternoon as she thinks I need to see him right away. She is also placing me in the women's shelter just for the night of the 31st to get through this day. (my due date). I told her if I sit home alone I will do something that I won't be able to take back. I told her these urges are so strong I am afraid that I will follow through with them. So this is good and I know the staff well at the shelter, just been a while since I have seen them.

I am going to try and go to the library this weekend as my new t recommended a book to help learn more about what my son is going through. So perfect timing and I thank you for this. I will let u know if they have these books. If not we have tons of book stores here. This is cool to give me these resources. Maybe I can understand this more and learn how to deal with things better.

Justy