When I was on clomipramine/abilify I gained 25lbs so we switched meds. On lithium/cipralex/risperidone I've gained another 15 and counting. I am beyond upset.

I am tall and all the weight went to my stomach. I've had 2 people ask me if I'm pregnant in the last week to which I just say no I'm just fat. I feel so disgusted with myself and want to throw up every time I eat. I'm starving all the time and eat almost nothing, but still gain. To make matters worse my favorite hobby is pole dancing and I feel like the most out of shape person in my classes.

Basically my self esteem is crap right now. I know I shouldn't be hard on myself and I would never criticize someone else the way I talk to myself. I don't think I can live without these meds. I just came out of the worst depression of my life and it took me a year. If I have to do that again, I think I won't survive it. I also can't picture my life if I keep gaining weight. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. Upset.

Can anyone relate or give me any advice?