T said she cant help me further and needed to find a specialist
I told case manager and she said she would talk to T about it and see what they can do

she said she would also take care of the disability thing, but im scared because she said she wants me to do something with a work coach or something so they can have something 'on the papers'

i think im have a nervous break down... extremely depersonalized...

Damnit...
I hate feeling like this...
What does a Specialist do different?

I can't do anything with a work coach or whatever she was talking about..

I tried to explain to T what I was feeling...
Told her... she couldn't understand I think... she just said She cant help me more..
and asked me where I "feel" it at..? I don't feel anything, what she talking about feelin something somewhere?

I feel sad... tired..