Well.

I got a call from "her" yesterday and was not going to answer the phone. I felt guilty because I didn't want her to feel rejected. I answered it and that heaviness oozed onto me the minute she started talking. It was just the sound of her voice! In my mind, I could hear the condescending things she has said to me. I couldn't think of anything to say, as far as having a conversation with her. I told her that someone had pulled up in my driveway, which they had, and told her I would call her back later. I had no intention of calling her back.

Now. I feel guilty. I feel like I am rejecting her. She is so manipulative in an underhanded kind of way, I can see her turning this around so that she's a victim and unwanted. I guess what I'm doing is not very kind. I don't know!

I wish I could be honest with her and tell her that she is a narcissistic bully. That would certainly cause a confrontation! I don't believe I have a part of me that is capable of doing that anyway.

My social skills suck!!