im trying to be calm... but im really scared..
scared that my psyche is going to just explode...
fall apart... or that in some way im going to stop functioning or cease to be you know...
i feel like something bad is about to happen... i feel distant, like out of proportion... like i cant fit inside of my body but the body being way too big at the same time, like its collapsing on itself... and to "beat the band" i have a bad wisdom tooth aching really bad through all of this... which i know isn't helping things... i keep forgeting its hurting.. but then my whole face starts hurting again and im like oh i have a face... and a body... and .. blah

i dont want to have a nervous break down...
things are not going so ok right now... the paradigm is falling apart