Basically, I don't go out because I have no friends. The only way I will be around people is either when people visit us like relatives (currently I live with my parents), or when there is a social occasion like a wedding, and in both cases my father will be there. But even if I am alone, which was the case for 7 years while I was abroad studying and working, the fear that was instilled in me prevented me from socializing, because I felt I am inadequate socially because all of the years I was criticized by my father on everything I said or did.