Doctor is out of town until next week. But a few days don't make a difference. Psychopharmacology measures time in weeks, not days.

So I'm waiting. I know things may change, better or worse, within 24 hrs, as well as stay like this for weeks.

Support and encouragement may not feel good when no "good" is conceivable. But their absence would surely make things worse, so I am "happy" to belong here.

How strange: right before this episode I was feeling high, full of energy. I knew rationally that it was immotivated, but I felt great anyway. Now I know rationally that everything is OK, but I feel awful anyway. Incredible what LITTLE rationality means in our lives.

Well, let's see what is going to happen...