Thread: I Lied...
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Old May 05, 2017, 09:32 AM
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Originally Posted by Rayne Selene View Post
Please, no hate. I know what I did was wrong. My fingernails are GONE. I have extreme anxiety...I can't stop obsessing, my heart rate has been elevated for the past three days, and I'm so stressed about it..

Something happened at work, and I responded to it...and later, when recounting the story, I embellished. I don't know why I did. I didn't think about the words coming out of my mouth. I'm usually an extremely honest person. I think I was scared that I didn't handle the situation perfectly, that I maybe misinterpreted what was going on, so I embellished to make it seem like what I thought was going on was definitely going on...it was stupid, and I feel horrible. Horrible. There's no way I can come clean, because my boss wouldn't trust me (duh). I never want to tell any kind of lie ever again...ever, ever again.

It isn't a lie that hurts anybody. It isn't a story that can ever be verified or disproven...and even if somebody had a full video of the entire incident, I didn't do anything wrong (other than embellishing the retelling). But for some reason, I'm terrified that it'll come to light that I embellished it, and I'm furious and embarrassed with myself. I don't know how to stop obsessing and just let this go...I feel like a person on a television drama...

To make matters worse, my boss posted the whole incident on Facebook, applauding the way I supposedly handled it. It's been shared 700 times in the last 24 hours. Everyone is telling me how great I am, and I don't deserve it. I feel nothing but shame. I'm sick to my stomach.

I know most of you will tell me I deserve to feel this way, and I agree. I just needed to come clean somewhere. My anxiety about this is through the roof.
Give yourself a break...I think we have all done something similar at some time....I think the social media attention is what makes this really hard for you. You are human, you want to be seen in a good light, that is normal. It is OK. It will pass. Forgive yourself. Please. (I know what it is like to keep beating oneself up for a stupid unexpected false rendition of a situation). If "praised" for your supposed actions, just pass it off. It is in the past and you have more than tortured yourself over a very human action. (((((big big hug)))))
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