Even with me having times that I am looking forward to upcoming sessions and often miss my T between sessions; I have times where I dread or don't want to go.

Have you given voice to why you don't want to go? How has your therapy been going, are you making progress, could it be time for a break or less frequent sessions? Or the opposite would more frequent sessions help you stay more in tune with what is going on within sessions? I found when I was going weekly that day 1-2 after session I was all connected and open, willing to share anything/everything. Days 3-5, I'd have a slight let down and become unsure if I could trust her. By day 7, I was withholding and closed off again.