Crimsoncat, I'm not a big fan of rehashing the past wishing that things had gone differently.

The only regret I have is that I did not stop drinking when I first realized I had a problem. It was in 2002 and I kept telling myself I;d sober up next weekend. Guess what next weekend never came because the withdrawl shakes were too bad. 3 years of progressivly heavier drinking and I had my first seizure. That got my attention and I managed to cut back for about 6 months, and then it got really out of control. I was sent to rehab, by company, in 2016. but relapsed almost immediately, and was eventually let go from the job.

If been in and out of rehabs since 2017and am only coming up on once again having 1 year sober.

I think I could have had a very better or at least different outcome, if I'd stopped when I was just starting to be physically dependent.

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