i can visit my old neighborhood whenever i want but i've found it doesnt help, actually makes things worse, so i go there only on the anniversary day.
and i did say goodbye properly and in my own way, and of course it was good being able to do it so, but i still miss it. and actually im glad i do cause this shows how attached to my Home i was and still am. im glad i still dream about it cause it means i havent forgotten it. and i never will. as i will never accept the move and the new house. i never wanted it.