the cats chewed through the printer cord. thats it. and me not being mad about the cats chewing through the cord makes me, apparently, a horrible person. this is what he turned this into:

-i dont want kids because theyre expensive but i want pets (i tried to explain to him that kids are more than 10 times the cost of pets and he wouldnt shut up)
-i love the pets more than him
-i want him to work extra so we can have the pets even though it means i dont see him

ok this and the mouse are the only 2 things the cats have broken. thats it. maybe a combined 50 bucks. but i guess thats the reason he has to work 2 jobs? for 50 bucks. he is making me feel bad for not getting mad about this. i told him that typically as long as no one gets hurt i really dont care what breaks. i make sure that in the process of chewing they didnt get electrocuted or something. if not then im fine. but he doesnt even think about stuff like that. they could be in shock from something and all he would say is "well we dont have money for the vet bill". doesnt that sound kind of heartless?

i feel like if i were in a car accident he would say "well we cant afford a new car" not "are you okay!?"

i see our pets as a part of our family and he hates them. the only one he likes is the oldest cat and he exampts her from everything. he gets mad about the blinds breaking, then i tell him that hera (the oldest) did it and he doesnt get mad. if i told him that hera was the one to chew through the cord he would calm down.

i dont get it. it really makes me mad that money controls his mood. he acts like i dont bring home just about half the income.

what bugs me even more is that last semester i was working about 45 hours a week (and still am) and still managed to get a 4.0 going to school full time. this semester i think ill have a 3.75. and i didnt complain at all! i even asked him if i complained and just didnt realize it and he said no. so i just dont get why its okay for me to do it but when hes working a lot its like the world is coming to an end.

im steaming right now and had to vent. sorry it was so long.