I had a nasty episode that started last April and went through August.

I'm a writer. At the beginning of the episode I wrote half of a novel. My problem is that I associate writing with the episode, like the writing triggered it. Because of that I'm afraid to write anything! I can not go crazy again. I'm paranoid that if I went crazy again my husband would leave me for good.

There's already a bunch of things that I used to do that I avoid now because they trigger me. It just sucks.

Does anyone else have a similar problem?

I'm so afraid to be creative again!