Do you ever feel meds have just made your situation worse?

In 2007 I went to a psychiatrist for the first time and she prescribed me sertraline, telling me that if I was bipolar it would probably make me manic. It did make me manic and I ended up in the hospital.

Prior to being put on sertraline I had just gotten through rehab for alcohol abuse, and I was depressed. She also put me on alprazolam, which got upgraded to clonazepam 4mg a day.

I went through clonazepam withdrawal because my psychiatrist at that time had me wean off of it in only two months, which was too fast. It lasted four months and was one of the worse experiences of my life.

Then about three months later I overdosed on clonazepam, propranolol, and gabapentin. I think it was some sort of residual effect from my too fast taper.

I'm sort of sick of all these meds messing with my mind! I can't get over the feeling that they've made things worse.

And no, I can't go med free. My husband said he'd leave me if I went off of them.