This mental practice/exercise may prove to be helpful and effective. Try to imagine that someone else in your life whom you care about was experiencing your exact same circumstances that you are going through. Now, imagine that person was having a heart-to-heart conversation with you and admitted to experiencing everything you outlined above (struggling with coping, reaching out for help, feeling emotions, etc)... How would you react in response to what that person shared with you? How would you feel towards that person and his/her present condition (or state of being)? Would you feel embarrassed for them, and think, "oh that person should be shameful (or guilty) over what he/she is experiencing"....? Or would you instead find yourself feeling heart-based emotions like empathy, sympathy, compassion, acceptance/understanding for what that person is going through?

Really try to tap into how you would feel and perceive such circumstances if a loved one was experiencing and going through exactly what you presently are... This heart-based response that you would generate for another person being in your shoes is exactly what you need to work on increasingly connecting with because it is exactly how YOU should respond and feel towards YOURSELF... You deserve that same compassion/acceptance/understanding that you would extend to another. The more you can integrate this truth into your state of awareness - the more you will find ourself transmuting those current debilitating emotional patterns (like feeling shame) into the healing and uplifting heart-based emotions and this will have the effect of pulling you out of your present condition.... It's like you are re-wiring yourself so that you adopt a whole different way of perceiving yourself and responding to your circumstances.... It takes time, intention, and patience - but this can absolutely be accomplished. Just keep at it and little by little you will start making progress - eventually your momentum will really start to build up steam and then you will find yourself experiencing significant breakthroughs and making huge progress in healing/purifying yourself.